stuck

is it a bad sign that whenever someone asks me what my "dream" job would be, i have no answer?? i'm thinking it is. my therapist is hoping that like "becoming a mom" and "falling in love with mark," that my "finding a job" will just Happen and that'll be that. i'm skeptical that this is the way things are in the professionally employed world, but i certainly would like to be one of the few whose career is Just Right for them. i just can't wrap my head around the idea of going to work and NOT loving it, the way i love being with henri or mark or both. which doesn't mean it will be perfect... on the contrary, it will be challenging and sometimes exhausting, but, also, rewarding, satisfying, intriguing, and--most of all--fun. it will be another reason for me to get out of bed. it will be. well. i don't know what it will be, really. because i don't know what i want to "be." help! someone out there made it possible for me to get pregnant and meet mark, despite all of my hard work to keep either of those things from happening (!)...where are you now, oh spirit of happiness? doesn't being a headhunter fall into your job description, too???